Friday, March 19, 2004

mmmm it's been a long time since i last posted... about 5 days ago.. haha been rather busy with my school assignments and sadly there's more to come.. i'm currently working on my programming assignment with java, and there's 3 pending.. another programming one for visual basic and some stupid BIS assignment which i think is a total waste of time.. i'm supposed to actually go out there somewhere on the island of singapore and interview someone who owns a shop... and ask them about their information systems, how they keep track of stock, and how they order their stock. DOH!! i mean, like who's gonna entertain me?? bleah... terrible.. the last one is my office applications assignment.. individual work.. goodness.. i'm like bogged down by these assignments piling up all at once... sigh.

i'm getting loadsa mixed feelings lately.. just don't know what to do... really jing tui liang nan. (hey hey i may be chinese B but my china not so bad ok... at least i know some proverbs. muahahaha...) yup it's like if i do this, it will result in this.. and if i do that, i'm afraid i cant achieve this and i get that... erm mmm that sounds pretty confusing but i think u've been thru it as well huh?? bleah oh wells i guess time is the best medicine. :)

Monday, March 15, 2004

today i left a boy, a very special boy
he helped me up when i was down
he gave me a shoulder to cry on
he gave me something to live for
he showered me with love hugs and kisses
along with presents and flowers
he was sweet, very sweet
always patient, willing to sacrifice
he would travel to another part of the island all alone
just to pick me up
whispering to me
how perfect i was

we've shared ups and downs
cried together and laughed together
we've argued and forgave
we've cried and comforted

so ask me why did i leave him?
i'll tell you...
i don't know.

Saturday, March 13, 2004

sad day today... had some kinda misunderstanding with zhihong.. i think he thinks i'm out of my mind. sigh... we were like talking about it in msn last night.. and i decided not to call him as i usually do every night before i sleep cos we're sure to quarrel about it until dunno what time.. so i just went to bed without calling him. feel like meeting him for dinner but i guess he's just gonna "say" me about last night so i don't really see the point in meeting up.

frankly, i don't know what to do. i'm just having mixed feelings. one side of me wants to see him and talk to him, but yet the other side says no, because he's gonna talk about last night, and i don't want to face it. maybe i was wrong, but i still don't want to face it because once we start it's not gonna stop and that will totally suck. just trying to avoid him now i guess -- till everything's cooled. -bleah- time shall solve this.

Friday, March 12, 2004

sian... i'm in school now rotting.. i just finished my assignment for DOA so now i'm free!! tried connecting to gunbound but cannot work.. haiz so sian... ahaha.. my stupid slacker DOA lecturer left the class 1 hour before it ended.. anyway he's not needed in the classroom la he just sit the and do nothing anyway, so might as well leave and not take up space. -bleah-

my assignment is done i'm so happy!! then me and my friend go do list checking and we have all the components under "to obtain a distinction"... muahahahaha.... DOA is a slacker module.. just play around with microsoft office applications. there's this instruction in the book which is "to start typing, we use the keyboard." haha so retarded.. i mean like DUH???!! what else? haha.. damn farnie... nothing much to report about today.. i'll be going to Lakeside Family Centre again today. lala~

Thursday, March 11, 2004

i'm in school now... haha attending a god damn boring lesson.. waste of time man. so i decided to do this now.. i received my OS test paper yesterday and i got an A!! but zhihong more powerful.. he only got 1 MCQ question wrong out of the whole paper so he got A+!!! haha.. so proud of him. =) i'm glad that he's doing well. i hope he keeps this up la haha.. should be receiving EVP this friday. i hope i do well too.. haha..
i'll only be receiving PSP and BIS next week. sian... my BIS lecturer just said that everybody did well except for 2 ppl who did extremely well. FOR MCQ ONLY heh. i wonder who........ Fabian is disturbing me now... so irritating.. keep reading what i'm typing. oh well he's gonna read it sooner or later anyway so nvm. haha!!

and about yesterday.. i fell down the stairs in school!!! ahhhhh... cos it was raining and the steps was slippery and my slippers were even more slippery.. so... everything happened to fast that when Fabian realised what was happening he saw me sitting on the floor already. I WAS NOT EMBARRASSED OK but my laptop!!! it went "bom" on the floor with me.. not obvious destruction done but i hope it's still ok inside of it man.. then my slipper flew about 3 steps down. haha. so funnie.. then i was sitting there and luffing.. a few girls in front saw me fall but as typical singaporeans they nv help me la. DOH! then i think a couple of guys behind saw me also but since i was sitting in the middle of the stairs they went to another flight of stairs... haha.. so retarded...

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

ahhh i'm suffering from insomnia!!! i cant sleep at night.. and i'm so so darn tired today.. i never slept a wink last night.. my eyes were closed but my mind was fully awake and that really sucks... and i had to wake up at like 630am this morning... sigh.. i hope i get over it soon.. i'll die if i continue this way for a longer period of time... haha~

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

sian... today start school again.... haha today rain whole day.. sucha mood spoiler man.. this kind of rain will last for about 3 days on average.. haha convectional rain!!! geography!! i remember when we were in sec 3 in the early part of the the year then also liddat... then mdm shanti go talk about it.. haha!! today was quite uneventful.. i went to school, went for lunch with my friends then headed home cos zhihong wasnt feeling well so we cancelled our decision to meet after school. he went home at about 1pm.. then i reached home and slept for 3 hours.. haha super tired man.. then i watched tv... den blah blah. i decided to spare u the details la.. haha!! tata~

Sunday, March 07, 2004

i am at home now with nothing to do.
i am so bored.
my computer has a virus.
oh! what an interesting life.

harLow!! i came back from a birthday bbq not long ago... quite fun cos my friends damn retarded.. den kept laughing the whole night... haha!! i only ate like 5 pieces of sausages and 2 fishballs... but somehow i'm not hungry during bbqs... dunch noe why... then we did this damn cool thingy... we got a small beer bottle.. then broke the sparklers to get the powder in it.. then we had this 1.5cm thick layer of sparklers power in the bottle... then we went to the beach and placed the bottle there.. then lighted a proper sparkler and let it burn down, down, down... den weeee!!! a lot of sparks flew upwards!!! haha damn damn nice... we didn't expect the beer bottle to break but it did.. so hot till when it broke there was no explosion. it just split open.. haha!! we contributed to the air pollution but... once in a while for a beautiful sight.. who cares...?? haha!! then after that got free taxi ride home. muahahahahaha.....!!!

Friday, March 05, 2004

today is finally the last day of my common test!!! finally... damn tired man. i slept at like 3am the previous night cos i was busy memorizing points. and guess what today the paper had the farking case study attached. grrr... waste my time xia. could have just slept much much earlier.. haha then after the test i went to zhihong's place for lunch and a nice nap together to regain some energy.. cos i'll be having some community work nearby at Lakeside Family Centre. the one we went to paint murals in 2001!!! then we spent some quality time together cos we didn't spend much time together for the last two weeks cos i had to study... haha don't anyhow think ok we are innocent. ya anyway i was too tired to even move around too much la haha...

i just came back from Lakeside Family Centre and i saw our murals!!! haha so funny... bao bao's drawings and our painting... and the empty black patch which is now yellow. lol!! the memories... i had to give some kinda tuition to this pri 3 boy.. so naughty! he keep talking non stop. haha! quite cute la but he always kenna punished cos he keep talking and nv do his work. i was teaching him maths... those which he did before i came were ALL WRONG!! haha.. then i made him do the corrections.. den i gave him some exercises on division with questions i set myself.. then done already i came to zhihong's place again to meet him for dinner... he's showering now so i'm typing this... so glad that we're ok already............ :)

Thursday, March 04, 2004

ahhhh... i just got home not long ago from my PSP test... die la... i can say bye bye to my A already.... boo hoo!!!!! so difficult ok... damn the lecturers... ARGH!!! and there was this part where i was supposed to display the number of columns... and i wrote the code wrongly!!!! i remembered the important part but guess what i wrote that part in the WRONG side of the damn code!!!! fark la... mebbe i can see my B flying away oso... grrrr... but some parts i was lucky la.. managed to dig into my brain to remember some stuff we learnt last year.. so that's a consolation i guess. heh heh...

den ah... after the test there was a BIS lecture... waste my time only!!! wahhh kaoz i damn pissed with the lecturer.. he go thru the powerpoint slides like we have photographic memory plus speed reading skills.. idiot!! and those slides cant be accessed on the NP webbie. stupid la i think i gonna fail BIS.. so irritating....

today i added the scrolling marquee down there. nice nice?? haha!! i'm getting a bit crazee about my blog.. i need to wait for my stupid friend to go help me gao tim the tag board. haha.. i wanna add music.... i shall review the songs lata... nothing much for now bb!!

sigh yesterday was not a very good day.... quarrelled with zhihong... over stew pig things as usual... sigh... dunno wad to say lar..... den yesterday's EVP test was not bad... I HOPE.. haha!! today having PSP test... as in later at 1.30pm.. heh. i'm kinda studying for it now... quite afraid that i will forget everything.. i seem to know everything... but still don't feel safe leh... haha!! i hope everything goes well today... including zhihong... he also taking psp test with me... i wish him the best of luck.. haha! oh well gotta go study AGAIN.. at least i've got 2 down already... left one STOOOOPID module called BIS.. waste of time.. so difficult some more.... EErrRRrrRGGggGGhhHHH!!!

right... i finally got somewhere... now my blog area is in the right place.. and i got the time... but i still dunno what to do with the stupid tag board!!!! it's like down there and that sucks... i wanna move it to the black area just at the left... i changed the codes but it wouldnt budge!!! can someone help?? i need a html pro here... haha!!!

anyway i'm like studying for my test now... so bored.. i wanna study.. but i wanna continue to contruct my blog as well... my blog is so boring still.. sigh.. slowly...... haha i think i better go do my work... once after friday i'll be free!!! woot~

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

RIGHT..... i'm creating a blog for the very first time and i seem to suck at it... goodness i'm a shame to the school of ICT... hahaha!! my html is so lousy.. i have to like keep typing and undo-ing and saving and viewing till i get to the correct part... haha oh man.... i think my blog is kinda boring.. *sObZ*! i'm still trying to figure out how to place my tag board... it's like flying high up there now... ergh... this is soooo infuriating.. i cant seem to get it to where i want it to be... AND the timing!!! it's like so weird.. i can't get it to be the local time.... yikes.. and i still have to look for a suitable song..... haha!! i cant wait for the whole thing to be done! those who can help must help me......... *waves SOS flag*